{"id":988,"date":"2021-01-29T04:00:48","date_gmt":"2021-01-29T12:00:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/?p=988"},"modified":"2021-01-28T23:08:56","modified_gmt":"2021-01-29T07:08:56","slug":"the-13th-month-of-2020","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/2021\/01\/29\/the-13th-month-of-2020\/","title":{"rendered":"The 13th Month of 2020"},"content":{"rendered":"

This month has been a hell of a year. It would take me all of my space for this post to recount everything that has happened in the past 29 days, and honestly there\u2019s no need, you were there too.<\/p>\n

And you know what?\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019m taking it personally<\/i>.\u00a0 <\/span>I started off the year thinking that this year I would hit all of my deadlines, got everything in early not just on time, got seven hours of sleep every night, and actually made dinner regularly. Oh, and I was also going to have enough time to make myself lunch ahead of time. Raise your hand if you think that lasted more than a week.<\/p>\n

I see none of you took that sucker bet.<\/p>\n

There\u2019s been a thought in the back of my head, that has moved to the front of my head this week. How long do we give ourselves a free pass, by saying, \u201cwell it\u2019s 2020.\u201d Or, the 13th month of 2020. At what point do we know, it\u2019s over, everyone has to get back to being competent again?<\/p>\n

OK, whatever level of competence we had before *waves hands* all this started.<\/p>\n

The answer is, depressingly, we\u2019re not going to know.\u00a0 <\/span>Not until we look backward and say, \u201coh yeah, around X, that\u2019s when things started to get better.\u201d And even then, we\u2019re not going to suddenly discover that our focus has come back, our energy returned, our depressions lifted.<\/p>\n

Trauma is never that goddamned considerate, or communicative.<\/p>\n

So when I got the call from one of the shelters I volunteer with, asking if I\u2019d be able to take in a six-week-old puppy, part of a litter that had been pulled from a bad situation and needed a fast home, I said, yes.\u00a0 <\/span>Because hey, if you\u2019re already drowning, why not dive?<\/p>\n

This, like so many of my decisions in the past 13 months, was both horrible, and brilliant.\u00a0 <\/span>Horrible, because six-week-old puppies need constant attention, and by that I mean, you\u2019re up every hour and half, all night, to take them out and encourage them to pee and poo, hopefully but not always on the pad provided for that action.\u00a0 <\/span>And if not, you clean it up, put them back in their kennel, and try to get 85 minutes of sleep before the next round.\u00a0 <\/span>And then you do that all day, too, only without the sleep<\/p>\n

Brilliant, because there is nothing like holding a small bundle of fur and heartbeat, and knowin\"ag that you are its entire world.<\/span><\/p>\n

(okay, me, and Max.\u00a0 <\/span>Max turned out to be a pawsome<\/i> big foster-sister.)<\/p>\n

But also brilliant, because when I handed him off at the end of his fostering – and took a two hour nap – I suddenly realized that I had so much more energy and time to accomplish things than I\u2019d had just a week before!\u00a0 Suddenly, everything was still painful, but manageable.<\/span><\/p>\n

\nOf course<\/i> it\u2019s a mirage.\u00a0 <\/span>Shhhhh.\u00a0 <\/span>Don\u2019t let my brain know.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This month has been a hell of a year. It would take me all of my space for this post to recount everything that has happened in the past 29 days, and honestly there\u2019s no need, you were there too. And you know what?\u00a0 I\u2019m taking it personally.\u00a0 I started off the year thinking that […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[91,166],"tags":[117,57],"class_list":["post-988","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-animals-pets","category-covid-life","tag-fostering","tag-laura-anne-gilman"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/9"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=988"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":990,"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988\/revisions\/990"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=988"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=988"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/treehousewriters.com\/wp53\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=988"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}